Thursday, October 10, 2013
Something About the Fall @ 4:28 PM
I'm back. Something about the Fall that as the leaves fall, the air becomes cooler you become full of thought. The season of fall is a period to reflect on our lives- make new goals, evaluate the ones we have, put the summer behind us and attend to our responsibilities.
Friday, October 19, 2012
Opportunity Cost @ 8:17 PM
There are plenty of girls out there that fall in love
with their best friend. He grew on you out of nowhere, in ways you never
thought possible. You started thinking maybe they are "The
One". He’s a great listener, has a great sense of humor, pays
attention to what you say, dresses awesome, and gets along with your friends.
Is it a good idea to tell him you like him? Does he like you too? The
fear of being rejected kills you. You do not wanna risk the great friendship. He
might not want you like you want him. How do you tell him?
You already know everything about him: what he likes and
dislikes; the types of girls he prefers, his favorite sports teams...just as
well as he knows everything about you and finds it cute. His mom and dog
adores you already; What to do? what to do?
Well I know you are expecting me to tell you what to do
in this situation because many of us have been in it. However, I don’t know any
better than you guys. Here’s what you don’t do. You do not, and again I repeat,
you do not get completely drunk at your best friends house and confess your love
to him while falling over. Then you definitely do not start crying while you
confess your love as he walks you to bed. You also do no invest money to go
visit him at his school, because he WILL greet you with his ugly ex- girlfriend
and break your heart. Boys are dumb and do not get you. Or better yet, I have
been thinking, boys are not as dumb as they seem and know the exact damage they
are doing but continue to do it because we are not going anywhere. Next time I
see him, things will be exactly the same. We all know what we do and we
continue to do it. It’s sick, and unhealthy but nothing will ever stop. We are
all afraid to change situations because your brain along with your heart make
it so you remember and feel the good and happy more than the pain and the sad.
As of now my advice is to not fish in your friend pool, because those fish are
not ready for what you have to offer. Remember ladies, there’s a lot of fish in
the sea but wait for the guy who realizes you’re a fucking mermaid.
I have two
jobs and go to school full time, so I rarely have time to socialize or to meet
someone to tickle my fancy. But there’s this guy at work, well at one of them,
the hotel that I have the biggest crush on. I do bot know what it is, I smile
at him all the time and flirt like a 5 year old when I am around him.
Last night was the night. I randomly worked a
Wednesday night and we ended up finishing up late at work so he asked me to
hang out! I was a little hesitant because he has a girlfriend, but he explained
to me how they just had broken up. I was like then fuck yes. Shortly after we
left work, we sat in his car deciding what we can do at 12 o’ clock at night.
Then it happened. He put his hand on my knee. His
touch felt nice and warm. He started to run his hand further up, but it felt so
good that I let out a low moan. He made me blush by whispering all the naughty
things he wanted to do to me. He made out with me as if had just come back from
war and hadn’t seen a girl in years. I liked it that he was rough like that. He
reached down and started rubbing my thighs. I wanted him so bad. The bulge in
his pants was huge. I felt the cold window against my back and his thick wet
lips on my skin as he kissed my neck. I wanted him. The drive to his house only
took about 10 minutes, but it felt like hours of waiting. I kept thinking, “
omg am I really doing this?” He opened
the front door of his apartment, pushed me against the hallway wall and kissed
my neck. I reached down and started to undo his jeans. I couldn't take it
anymore! He took my hand and led him into his bedroom. We ripped each other’s
clothes off and I threw him down onto the bed. He was sitting on the edge of it
and I was on top of him so that my knees were on the bed. I kissed him
furiously. I felt great passion in his kiss as we rolled in his cotton sheets,
as if we were meat to be doing this. Has if I got hired at the hotel because
life knew we were going to have this incredible night together. He slowly kissed
down my body. He grabbed my hip. My eyes rolled back into my head of pure
pleasure, it was perfect. Ecstasy.
Then I woke up from my dream.
50 shades of lonely.
Let’s face it, sex is great. There is nothing like good old
fashioned - no holds barred - two sweaty bodies tearing up the sheets - no
commitment sex. God bless these guys… and girls for their wisdom and
willingness to spread this kinda of love around. For many people this is what
their goal is, and if this is what you’re looking for, then more power to you.
In no way, shape or form do I look down at a person who just desires sex
without the relationship and commitment. In fact, I believe that everyone in the
world has periods in their lives when this is exactly what they need. It’s what
the doctor ordered, so to speak. On the other hand, there comes a time when
almost everyone wants to settle down. And when that time comes, don’t let them
go. Don’t take them for granted. Well, Before I start getting all serious all
I’m trying to say is I just want figure life out, we all are, so try new
things, meet new people, don’t second guess yourself, and remember that life
without sex, is an outfit without the perfect shoes, a waste.
I just witnessed an awkward conversation between two awkwardly social people. He was one of those guys, who still has that greasy, long hair, flipped over his eye, wearing all black and worn out plastic bands around his wrist, he bought from hot topic. She was wearing a blank spaghetti strap tank top with jeans and hgtacky brown boots. He began to speak to her about art because she carried an art portfolio, the conversation was pretty average and seemed as if they both did not have an social skills. He overall did not have any game what so ever and wanted a quick exit. But he took the leap. We all complain about being alone, and blame it on living on Long Island, or being surrounded by gays in the city. But lets all Wake up and smell the pumpkin spice lattes, we are alone because we do not take chances. We don't drive back to that Starbucks where the employee gives you that extra smile, or talk to that one attractive guy on the subway, because we just don't see the point. Well here's the point, you're single, it's not that big a deal and whats the worse that can happen? He says no? That boy who looked like he belonged in the band fall out boy, ended the conversation with " my name is Brandon by the way, here's my number if you want to get some coffee sometime." I need some COFFEE in my life, if you're picking up what I'm putting down. So Lets all take the leap, because I don't know about you guys but its only fall and I'm already in need of some warmth in my bed.
